Letting Go of Anger

Considering the fact that I just discovered that “I” am the sole reason that I am unhappy, I am actually looking forward to discovering more about myself. But any way you were wronged—badly wronged. (At some point, haven't we all been?) But holding on to that rage means allowing the past to define your present.

Points from the second class:

• Revenge or thinking that you deserve something more than someone else is the ego at work and when this happens, you are not living from your true self.
  
• Holding onto anger can set you back from living the life you were meant to live.
  
• Releasing anger allows beauty to come back into your life.

Main Question:
What is holding you back right now? I had to put a lot of thought into this question & it finally dawned on me that I was holding myself back. Just as I discovered that I make myself unhappy by waiting “for the other shoe to drop” I make myself angry by trying to control that which I can not. I know how to ask for what I want, it’s just I choose to remain silent and then seethe because my needs were not met.

Further exploration:

1. Look within yourself for anything from rage to slight annoyance. What’s the object of your anger? I believed all the lies that you told me and that makes me angry. But my anger is not directed entirely at you – I am mad at myself for being so gullible. Don’t get me wrong – I despise you and what you did to me, but not as much as I feel betrayed by my own sense of self.
   
2. Thinking about the anger you’ve just noted, see if the underlying cause of the anger is fear. If you can find a fear, write it down. I am now fearful in every aspect of my life – I don’t want to trust anyone again. Not even myself.
   
3. Is there something you lost – or never had – that has created a wound or sorrow? I lost my sense of self trust.
   
4. If fear and sorrow were absent, there would be no anger. What act of courage might help you defeat your fear? Learning to trust myself again.
   

What I need to keep in mind? “You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them."