I am a girl

In my dreams I've always been taller, skinnier, sexier - with short bright red hair, but that is not the image in my mirror no matter how much I wish it to be. The image in my mirror is short (just under 5 feet) and round, but I did have the short red hair for awhile. 

I didn't let my size stop me from being a force to be reckoned with. I've been an ass kicker my whole life - taking down the unjust as I see fit, with a sharp wit and biting sarcasm. Making up for my short round stature with an incredibly quick mind. Comments, phrases, random bits get sucked into the Rolodex in my mind and I can quote facts & figures until your head spins, or mine does. 

I've always been a fighter - going after those bigger & tougher than myself. 
I stood up for my gender - stood up proud and aloof - waiting for a man to say the wrong thing so that I could cut him down to size, often times using his owns words & actions to do it. I honestly thought that most men (my dearest Daddy the most wonderful exception but there were others) were just out to "get me" so I got into a get them first mind set and I was a hardcore feminist. 

  • I can open my own door (both car & store) thank you very much, 
  • I can pay for my food, 
  • I can change my own flat,
  • I can do it all myself (yes even give myself an great big old O0
  • I don't need no help from "a man".
  • I despised pink, and frills, and dresses, and girly girls; that was so not me.

Then I met my BF Bunny (or rather remet him cause I knew him 20 years ago too) and all of that changed. Now I'm not saying fuck feminism, that's not my point. I would instead say I can be a girly girl with tons of femininity and still be a feminist. 

I rather like being a woman who owns her femininity while 
being with a man who owns his masculinity. 

I have grown to love chivalry and manners. I love cooking for my manly man and having him devour the food that I make. I have learned to love flowers for no reason. I have worn long flowing sun dresses and short teasing skirts and blue jeans with sneakers because he adores them so. I have grown accustomed to my hand being held and doors being opened and chairs being pulled out.  I love feeling protected by his big strong arms, my very own Knight Gallant, with his courtesy manners & old fashioned ideals. I have discovered that taking care of my man and allowing him the privilege of taking of me does not diminish who I am. In fact it adds to the total package. 

I think it's funny that he must wait on me while I finish getting ready because I am his princess, his baby girl, his doll, and that means he must wait while I fuss with my hair and spray my perfume and put on one more coat of mascara and perhaps change clothes yet again. I like the feeling that I get when I see the look in his eyes that says I am irresistible to him, his very own personal Goddess. 
I have found that my man coming in smelling of sweat and sawdust is an aphrodisiac to me. Even though I tease him and tell him he needs to shower before coming to bed, and when he does he smells of good clean soap - not body sprays or mists or lotions or potions. I have found that wearing sexy undies makes me feel girly and pretty and I love the way his calloused hands feel when they take them off. 

I love the fact that I can cuss like a sailor and it amuses him to no end. I love that I can be naked with him and not feel vulnerable. I love that I can beg for a spanking and often times get it, not because he wants to hurt me but because he knows that makes me swoon. 
I love the fact that he totally supports me and I don't mean financially. He understands that this week I want to loose weight and next week I'll crave chocolate. He gets that there are things that I can do for myself even when his manhood is telling him he should do it. I adore the fact that I can outshoot him and he only smiles because he knows that I can take care of myself when he isn't there, but he doesn't plan to go any where. 
I have found in my love a man that understands my need to go and do and see and explore OR stay home and cuddle and watch movies in bed OR attend a giant family/friend event full of people he doesn't know. A man that compliments my body (the bulges and dimples included) while understanding that I would like to be better. A man that tells me my nose is cute, and my eyes are beautiful, and my hair is perfect (even when it is in pigtails), and my ass is glorious, because he desires all of me.

And slowly but surely I'm starting to like pink.

One Less

Canson Mixed Media spiral bound journal
Dylusion Spray Inks in Bubblegum Pink & Calypso Teal (water)
Painters opaque paint marker in Black


Golden Acrylics in Teal & Manganese Blue Hue
Studio G Silver Paint Pen
Black Sharpie
Martha Stewart Glue & Blue Glitter
Sakura metallic gelly rolls in blue & silver

Blog Under Construction

I'm making a ton of changes to my personal life & that reflects in my blog (it always does) I'm currently in the process of making some changes to the way the layout works. Hopefully all the links will be up and functioning by the end of the month.

Preparing for a Hurricane


Store water in plastic containers such as soft drink bottles. Avoid using containers that will decompose or break, such as milk cartons or glass bottles. A normally active person needs to drink at least two quarts of water each day. Hot environments and intense physical activity can double that amount. Children, nursing mothers, and ill people will need more.
Store one gallon of water per person per day.
Keep at least a three-day supply of water per person (two quarts for drinking, two quarts for each person in your household for food preparation/sanitation).*


Store at least a three-day supply of non-perishable food. Select foods that require no refrigeration, preparation or cooking, and little or no water. If you must heat food, pack a can of sterno. Select food items that are compact and lightweight. Include a selection of the following foods in your Disaster Supplies Kit:
Ready-to-eat canned meats, fruits, and vegetables
Canned juices
Staples (salt, sugar, pepper, spices, etc.)
High energy foods
Food for infants
Comfort/stress foods

First Aid Kit - Assemble a first aid kit for your home and one for each car.

(20) adhesive bandages, various sizes.
(1) 5" x 9" sterile dressing.
(1) conforming roller gauze bandage.
(2) triangular bandages.
(2) 3 x 3 sterile gauze pads.
(2) 4 x 4 sterile gauze pads.
(1) roll 3" cohesive bandage.
(2) germicidal hand wipes or waterless alcohol-based hand sanitizer.
(6) antiseptic wipes.
(2) pair large medical grade non-latex gloves.
Adhesive tape, 2" width.
Anti-bacterial ointment.
Cold pack.
Scissors (small, personal).
CPR breathing barrier, such as a face shield.
Aspirin or nonaspirin pain reliever
Anti-diarrhea medication
Antacid (for stomach upset)
Syrup of Ipecac (use to induce vomiting if advised by the Poison Control Center)
Activated charcoal (use if advised by the Poison Control Center)

Tools and Supplies

Mess kits, or paper cups, plates, and plastic utensils*
Emergency preparedness manual*
Battery-operated radio and extra batteries*
Flashlight and extra batteries*
Cash or traveler's checks, change*
Non-electric can opener, utility knife*
Fire extinguisher: small canister ABC type
Tube tent
Matches in a waterproof container
Aluminum foil
Plastic storage containers
Signal flare
Paper, pencil
Needles, thread
Medicine dropper
Shut-off wrench, to turn off household gas and water
Plastic sheeting
Map of the area (for locating shelters)

Toilet paper, towelettes*
Soap, liquid detergent*
Feminine supplies*
Personal hygiene items*
Plastic garbage bags, ties (for personal sanitation uses)
Plastic bucket with tight lid
Household chlorine bleach
Bedding - include at least one complete change of clothing and footwear per person.
Sturdy shoes or work boots
Rain gear
Blankets or sleeping bags
Hat and gloves
Thermal underwear
Special Items

Remember family members with special requirements, such as infants and elderly or disabled persons
For Baby*

Important Family Documents

Keep these records in a waterproof, portable container:
Will, insurance policies, contracts deeds, stocks and bonds
Passports, social security cards, immunization records
Bank account numbers
Credit card account numbers and companies
Inventory of valuable household goods, important telephone numbers
Family records (birth, marriage, death certificates)
Store your kit in a convenient place known to all family members. Keep a smaller version of the supplies kit in the trunk of your car.
Keep items in airtight plastic bags. Change your stored water supply every six months so it stays fresh. Replace your stored food every six months. Re-think your kit and family needs at least once a year. Replace batteries, update clothes, etc.
Ask your physician or pharmacist about storing prescription medications.
General Disaster Preparedness Materials Children & Disasters

BOD: Heart Desire

As you know I am taking
an art journal class from Effy Wild.
She is such an inspiration!

Find all the deets of the class at her site!