Checking In With Myself
Monthly Goals for October
Clean & Cleanse Magic LampSet up altarDecorate the Magic Lamp (outdoors)- Visit 5 Haunted Houses (total has totally changed due to Hurrican Matthew flooding NC) ~ Only made it to 1 Haunted house and the Zombie Walk but hey life gets in the way sometimes
- Watch my Halloween movie list ~ 27 out of 35 ain't bad considering we were without power for a grand total of 6 days this month
Go to a pumpkin patch- Make my way out of a corn maze ~ most of the ones in this area were flattened by the storm
- Get my butt back to working out 5 nights a week (just modify those surrenders bitch) ~ eh, hasn't happened yet
Drink more waterDye my hair deep chocolate redWear at least one real outfit a week- with make up & hair done! ~ so half done- Continue a post per day here ~ total fail
Manage to work in my BuJo every day- Get back to my pamper days - I miss thems so very much (aka every Friday do a pamper activity or more) ~ yeah failed at this one too
- Deep clean and redecorate bedroom ~ failed
Deep clean bathroomDeep clean top rackBuy paint boxesReorganize paints in new boxesBuy wine rackSet up markers/pencils in wine rack
Not on the Goals List but Completed!
- Added outside dining area
- Learned a new skill with zombie make up - made my own prosthetic
In the realm of Earth
My physical body is starting with the aches & pains again, I have been following the eating plan portion of 21 Day Fix most of the time, but I have been failing on the exercise portion and it is starting to tell on me. I've had a headache for over a week now and can not determine the physical cause of it.
My work seems to be a more draining experience each and every single day. It is pulling at my feet like concrete boots in the river. I have lost the joy of going to work. I have lost connections with so many of my tribe, but at the same time, increased the communication levels with the online tribe. I feel discombobulated most days.
I am feeling stagnant and stale - I need to reconnect with my priority list next month.
In the realm of Air
I have been feeding my mind a lot of fluff and candy this month. Letting the pettiness of the day intrude on my relaxing times. Letting the blarg seep in and swirl around and have an extended stay. My anxiety levels are through the roof as are my depression tags. Nothing has interested me this month.
I did add a new skill to my bank but learning how to make halloween prostehetics by using hot glue. That was kinda fun.
In the realm of Water
I am feeling lost and out of touch lately. My heart has been heavy and sore. This time of year was the busiest with used to be friends and I am feeling that disconnect so much right now that it isn't even funny. And the really sad thing, I didn't even realize that that was probably the biggest issue until I typed those words.
My relationships are very very rocky. It's almost feels like I want to shut everyone (family, friends, critters, Bunny) out so they do not have the power to hurt me in the future. I know that is not a valid reason for shutting people out, but that is where I am right now.
In the realm of Fire
My passion is quiet right now, my fires are quiet right now. Cloaked in a blanket of sadness.
In the realm of Spirit
I have fallen so far to the wayside in my spiritual work. I have let life intrude far far too much.
Setting Up For Success
Monthly Goals
- Decorate patio for Christmas
- Decorate dining area for Christmas
- Decorate entry way for Christmas
- Start Christmas shopping
- Carolina RenFaire
- Create morning ritual
- Create evening ritual
- Continue to refine BuJo
- Add collections/lists to BuJo - look for the best ones
- Add TV tracker to BuJo & phone
- Art every day ~ use that junk journal!
In the realm of Earth
I need to start working out again, and maintaining my eating pattern (minus the chocolatey splurges). I also need to restart my meds. I want to work on firming my body up.
- Work out 5 nights a week
- Take a walk at least once a week
- restart my pamper me days
In the realm of Air
My mind is very tired right now, but I think that is because I am not challenging myself any more. I need to resume logic puzzles and quizzes. I also need to make sure that I am not just feeding it junk.
In the realm of Water
My subconscious is trying to tell me that the pain of losing such a close friend is still there and will in all likeliness remain there for a long time coming. I need to feel the feels and then let them go.
In the realm of Fire
The only "new" passion is my art - wrapping up the classes that I have taken and securing the ones for next year.
In the realm of Spirit
I need to sit with the below questions and find out what is calling to my spirit. What adventures can connect me to my witchy side this month? How can I tap into to allow spirit to fill me on a daily basis? Do I need to increase meditation & alone time?
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